Sometimes my head hurts so bad that I wish it would explode and the pain would stop. 

I don’t really want it to of course, but the thought is still there. 

I'm so frustrated today.

I can be doing really well, eating the right things, avoiding the wrong ones, and doing everything possible to be migraine-free, and STILL I can’t avoid the hormones. 

They’re like snipers, attacking when I least expect it.

I can almost sense them lurking in the background of my brain, and then “swoosh”, the aura slides into my left eye, and I know I was right.  It’s like living with a little rain cloud hanging just within your field of vision, and going everywhere you go.

I’ll do something normal, like put headphones on to listen to music while I work (like I do everyday), and I don’t know if it’s the sensation of the sound waves hitting my skull and carrying through or what, but suddenly it’s like a hurricane is building in my skull and I can’t get the headphones off fast enough.  Why?  Why is it an acceptable thing most days, and then suddenly it becomes an instrument of torture?  I don’t understand.

I once read an article talking about a theory on the way that migraines form in the cerebral cortex.  They described it quite aptly as a storm brewing there, and then moving to the different parts of the brain.  Scientifically, I have no idea if it was accurate or not, as this was some years ago and I am in no way a medical professional.  However, it rang true to me at the time, and the article has come back to my mind many times over the years. 

I feel like my whole life is being lived like I’m in the lull before the storm, and there’s no weatherman.